it's all about me

when you don't care about anything around you wheter it's insulting or offense, it was better, than you pay attention of them.

i'm just doing anything that make me feel relief. i mean.. man!! we are not on this world forever, we shall die, so don't waste your time with sadness and shit things it's just making worst. so enjoy your life with your style. do not care about others.

why i got so many heed when i didn't need it anymore, and i got no heed when i need it very much.
is it a brain's game or what?

everyone are changing. changed with their life, and i feel like i am far behind them.they are so different, i don't know why. because of that i'm wondering "am i changing??, have i changed my own life??,or i'm not changing at all?/"

i really hate people who just pretend to get involve in problem and wanted a big appreciate, because they could boast some bullshit!!

i can't control myself SOMETIMES but i tried to hold it down, but it doesn't work too, so what should i do?
i always stuck in my own false that i can not solve it with myself, so i just do it and do it again until i realize the consequence will happen to me.

everyone really obssess

i surely hate living on this world, i often wondering , why i was born on this world, but i find important matter that is the reason why i live in this world. Because i can make other people happy and smile, i feel so happy when i see everyone laughing and smile like everyone don't care about the world and i also can forget how ruthless this world by enjoying my life.

God i want stop with my bad habitual, God please renew me.

Living this life like you will never die but it won't be. seek for a peace in your words but also in your mind. keep calm and quiet and try to hear a sound of peace. imagine as if you are a tree with thousand leaves and they related on each word you have said they will fall as you say a word. so thst say the words about kindness and truthness to your beloved family or friend with your genuine love until the leaves gone, and you will find a real peace in your life.
- A thousand words -

Great moments are born from great opportunities

Yeah, i know man, maybe i look stupid around of you all, i know i'm not good in making good situation like you all doing, i know how you treated me like i wasn't there. but you know i'm more important and more respected in other place and time. just see, who will be shame in the other times?

maybe i stuck in the past, like others say it's time to "Move on"

everyone is being expert in study, but in fact it was useless because they don't know what the hell are they trying to get on their mind, i give you tips, if you want to be success in you test or something like that. you just have to bring it easy and enjoy.

what can i do. let it be, just let it go it's already passed, so just forget it. this is life man, if you wrong in some choices it means you  have to be smarter than before, if you get a bad result, don't be upset man. this is life you are not on the up of life forever, you must be down or on up. so just accept every result you had. because it's yours not others. bring it easy and fun. so you'll enjoy your day.

they are so enjoy with their life with pleasures. they don't know that their body, face or their splendor is futile in god's eye, i see your eyes, i know you are doing something wrong my friend and you keep on doing, because you don't want to lose your charm or your friends, but who knows, you are a better person if you are not in that way. i see your made-up smile. i know your heart is telling you that "This is not me, i'm on the wrong way" but you keep on doing that and keep on being like that, until you will realize that everything you have done is foolish. so i tell you know just walk unto the right path and you will find your real happiness.

i found a real joy in my life, i got girlfriend wohoooo.....!!!! it likes i can't express it on a words but i can express it on my own life, i really love this girl, at first i was really desperate about getting her, but i encouraged my self and i went desperately to her and express my feeling to her. she's accept it man. but there is still one more thing that missed i don't know what it is, but even i got a girlfriend that i really love, i don't feel like i was in love, yes of course i'm in love. but maybe i'm in the other side of love. that make me feel weird everytime i rememmber her . and now she's far away from me she's on the other place of mine. and i feel like she does't care and think about me a lot. and maybe she thought i was just a ordinary person in her life that doesn't make a different in her life.....
but i have to diggin down further till the next sabbath i will meet her and maybe every answer on my mind will be answered on that time.
eventhough the story is really bad, i still love her forever and ever. if she would know this, i just wanna say::: I LOVE you

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"other"people always make me weird, make me idiot on the sight of my freinds, but i enjoybe it, even that was so annoying to me. i just don't want make other people be sad, i liked to see the person who smile and laugh and happy with theirlives, eventhough it must be me to make them smile, i don't care about what people said about me, i always say to myself that i live on this world just once, and why i should have worry about anything around me instead i can do other things that more useful for my life.
i don't care about my face i don't care about my voice, I JUST CARE ABOUT MY LIFE TO GET INTO IT TO DO WHAT I HAVE TO FOR MY WHOLE LIFE AND PURSUE MY DREAM.

 have you ever done such an amazing things in your life? in my case i haven't at all.
i just really don't know how's life goin on. why that girl can change my whole life, and i wan get off of her but i cannot do that i don't know why, instead of i want living my old life ALONE!! but i'm always thinking about her, i just wan to be alone and make my things with my self like my old life, dreaming and running and doing something weird that i will not worry about what people says or what they will think about me, i think that was my real life to be. but when i start to get off of her i just can't do it. something i don't know stuck in my head and can't let it go. i just want my old life i want to be alone, i was wondering why i did this why i love her, i'm wondering if i didn't ask her maybe all of this will not happen. i'm an idiot i realized it, i always act like i know everything but in fact i'm just a liar-stupidkid-with bigfakedream. i'm an idiot i know that, i offend and mock other people in order that i will look so genius but i'm not fo real, i'm just a dullstupid-kid, i don't have talent or something to be proud of. i know somtimes i make my parents proud but for real in my heart i'm not proud of my self, i mean i might get everything with big really hard efforts, but the things don't get on me. i just want to be alone, lie on the green grass and see sun shines brightly there's no way i'm thinking of other people i just wanna sing and play and do something with my self without worry about this fuckin world i just wanna be free, my life is like jail i can't move as i like to move.but there's always but in my dictionary that i have always been had a power of change in my life, i will keep move on and do anything i like eventhough i'm in a jail.
Sometikes you have the big mistake on your life and you realized that you are not worthy. You always been thinking about yourself in the entire of your life about your mistakes, but i have experienced that some flaw on your life can be the most powerful strenght you ever got. Because the scar you left behind it make you more stronger, i will straight forward to you thatwhen you igjored all of your mistakesand moving on without carry the mistakes on your life you willbe free and feel nothing and you"re free fuck